I’m honestly so down and out about life, it seems as if everytime I get really excited about something in life.. the idea or the notion gets taken away in an instant. . I am just fed up going through the same struggles I am going through within the depths of life. There are so much people in this world that have it so much easier, and I wonder to god what requirements must you have in order to get certain privileges.. I just feel that good people get punished way harder more emotionally than others and its sad. . I no longer get hopeful or happy about anything any longer. . and I hate that I am twenty years old I shouldn’t feel this way at all.. but this feeling is not going away and I am afraid it will never go away nothing makes me excited or happy anymore and I honestly do not know how much longer I could deal with this immense unknown sadness. . I am sick and tired of it..